The GirL AwaY FroM HoMe

I was back at my hometown for a couple of days, and man did i had fun! I hang out with my girlfriend Karen Fong (my lesbo partner hahaha!) with her two friends and i invited an old guy friend to join me. I had so much fun. Played pool, drink and chatting and laughing out boobies out! Its just so good to be with people from home.

Then i also met up for dinner and chat with my oldest best best best friend Charlaine. Man! Its sooooo funny!!! We talking about guys and all that and other stuff too. She’s so pretty! We ate at Little Italy, my fav. restaurant! Then met my ex-bf who works there, he was so surprised to see me! Haha!

Well, i got a new hair-do, so basically my hair is different now. I got hair macam mop! hahahahahha!! gila… naa i cut had a straight cut for the frince and did something else to my hair. I kinda like it…

Home! Ahhh…my babies!!! Max, Pango and Guardian…well the sad part is Guardian(the cutest one, lost…) so left Max and Pango. They are extreamely cute. Just looking at their face makes me smile!

Exam is on 12 September, so i’m still stuck up with my accounting subject. Its so complicated! I’m bad with numbers. and numbers hav always been hating me hahhahaha! Well i’m coming back KK on the 19 September until 9 October, so i hopefully celebrating my 18 birthday in KK, its gonna be a huge party bash! If u are in KK, just join the party!!! I will update on the venue n time after i get things plan up.

Dont tell me you love me,

Dont tell me you care for me,

Dont say anything if you dont mean it.

Dont say that you can do anything for me,

Dont promise me anything to me,

Dont say anything that you cannot fullfill to me.

I’m hurt and fill with anger,

My sorrows still flows like the crushing river,

I’m defending my pride and ego to win,

This battle you are the one that plug in,

Now I’m under cover of my attitude,

To be what I never wanted to be,

Someone mean and evil,

That you show me to out call.

Now can you see me,

What angel to devil i have change,

You will never have the same me again,

Or ever will I come back to your heart again,

I once loved you but you let me fall,

Now I never will be in the same hole…

Time is running really fast. Once i was there, and the other minute it ends, i’m in the otherside already… i mean. There’s so many things happened in my life in such a short time. I cant take this anymore… i really cant… i’m almost getting up there holding the robe, but in order for me to reach the top, i need to throw my most important thing in life away. I know my words are hard to understand. But it implies to my lovelife, my studies and my big time dream! I cant handle all of this anymore. I’m so negatively minded that i wanna give up. Maybe i need more support in this… and my mom… she’s sick… i just wanna go home and be there for her as she had been there for me…aaarrrggghhhh my mind is so messed up! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There is something in life i know everyone dreamnt of having. It could be either materially or lifestyle to it. Whatever it is, its something you want to have in YOUR life!

Here’s the isue. Getting what you want is isnt easy. Old folks says "Work hard! My age, my father only give 20cent to school per day, now you all have RM600 to eat per month! Eat what so much ar? Can feed the whole pig yark in the farm!!". Friends says "Easy one lah! Go rompak or bodek your boyfriend to give you lah!" Your mother say "Do all the best! If you need money can ask me i give you." (That is so true for most of you there!) What about YOU SAYS "….what should i do leh…?"

Getting what you want comes with a price.

Eg 1. Good academic result, price : Do lots of practical, revise notes (uses ur time n effort)

Eg 2. Be the best sport man/women : Hours of Practice n practice (Nicole Davidson, squash player)

Eg 3. To have sexy body : Dun eat lah!!!!! N excersice! Then also save money for sexy clothing after you loose weight hehe

…. and the list go on!

  I did something horrible to get what i want! I mean, you can say i’m cruel when you found out what i did to get what i want. But i never suggest you do the same thing hehehe. Well, lately been so busy with so many things and my money is buzzing loose the purse again haha! So yeah, getting money 1. Diet 2. Work

  Exams are coming in September, so getting good result 3. Study lahh….