Throwing it all away…
Time is running really fast. Once i was there, and the other minute it ends, i’m in the otherside already… i mean. There’s so many things happened in my life in such a short time. I cant take this anymore… i really cant… i’m almost getting up there holding the robe, but in order for me to reach the top, i need to throw my most important thing in life away. I know my words are hard to understand. But it implies to my lovelife, my studies and my big time dream! I cant handle all of this anymore. I’m so negatively minded that i wanna give up. Maybe i need more support in this… and my mom… she’s sick… i just wanna go home and be there for her as she had been there for me…aaarrrggghhhh my mind is so messed up! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
August 26th, 2005 at 11:53 pm
Hey there!
well just wantd 2 say a few things ya~
well we’re at the big leagues now
the stakes r pretty high
cuz rite now we decide the future 4 ourselves
n tis time it sticks so no backing out.
yea im still worried bout the future n wat it holds 4 all of us,
yea im nt sure if dreams r worth chasing
r there rewards to be gained 4rm chasing dreams r or is it just an illusion rite?
i duuno if im wastin my time doing wat i tihnk is rite
n the scariest thing is tat i wont know whether im rite or wrong until after all the effort has been put in
n i hate tat feeling tat we’re gettin old
it scares me tat 10 years 4rm now,
there’s a chance tat nobody will have contact wit ne1 n we’ll b bz wit our own families n stuff…
plus i mite have 2 do NS 4 two years nxt year >.<
when in doubt
say the serenity prayer
Give me the serenity to accept things i cannot change,
Give me the power to change the things that i can,
And give me the wisdom to know the difference between the two.
Orite tats all the crazy stuff i gotta say
oke take care ya~